Living alone, independent is always a dream that all of us have during our younger days.. Right after a college, when u land a job that's away from home, that's soo exciting and like a dream come true for most youngsters..
The story is the same for me.. Landed in a job away from home, got married to my hubby from the same workplace and now this new place is home away from home.. Now that, my hubby isn't living with me (No, no, all's well with us.. away for work reasons.. ), I am alone at home. My parents and his parents and friends and relatives and extended friends keep visiting and endlessly ask the same question, "When are you going to be with ur hubby?" I am a little tired of this question now, as I don't happen to have an appropriate answer to this.. Nevertheless, people ask and I am obliged to answer..
Considering my never-ending work schedule, I always longed for some time for myself.. some peaceful time only for myself, to do things for myself.. sleep, read, cook, leisure and that's all.. Till about a week back, all this seemed impossible.. Apparently this weekend came as blessing, or should I say a blight! I hadn't planned anything for this weekend as I was almost sure I would end up working.. But it turned out, I didn't have to.. which means I should have been happy.. but NOOOO I was ridiculously upset, not knowing what to do 3 days.. No friends around, as everyone had planned up in advance for this weekend, no parents coming also.. So I was left to look after myself..
Probably the first time, I felt, it can get difficult to live alone.. As a friend rightly told me "Whoever created marriages, would have surely given it a thought!". So what about before marriage? I was alone even then.. Probably there's an age till when you can be alone and not after that.. You will need a constant companion... Not that I am old now, but may be that being-alone-age has crossed for me..
I was anguished at the thought of being at home and doing nothing.. So I ended up working one of the days and sat holed up inside the house the rest 2 days.. Seriously, it's an art to live alone and that too live alone and do nothing.. I think I was probably more upset as I wanted to do lot many things.. but wasn't able to find company to do so.. I am a little slow in making friends and so that is another problem that I always have when I am alone.. If the friends I am usually with aren't available, then I am stuck.. not that I depend on them all the time.. But that someone not being there gets difficult..
Finally, the long weekend ends today, and I am sort of happy to go back to work tomorrow as it will mean meeting people and talking to another human being.. Being on Whatsapp, Skype and all the virtual world stuff 24*7, thought of meeting another fellow human being is kinda pleasing..
A little strange, that work is making me happy now!
The story is the same for me.. Landed in a job away from home, got married to my hubby from the same workplace and now this new place is home away from home.. Now that, my hubby isn't living with me (No, no, all's well with us.. away for work reasons.. ), I am alone at home. My parents and his parents and friends and relatives and extended friends keep visiting and endlessly ask the same question, "When are you going to be with ur hubby?" I am a little tired of this question now, as I don't happen to have an appropriate answer to this.. Nevertheless, people ask and I am obliged to answer..
Considering my never-ending work schedule, I always longed for some time for myself.. some peaceful time only for myself, to do things for myself.. sleep, read, cook, leisure and that's all.. Till about a week back, all this seemed impossible.. Apparently this weekend came as blessing, or should I say a blight! I hadn't planned anything for this weekend as I was almost sure I would end up working.. But it turned out, I didn't have to.. which means I should have been happy.. but NOOOO I was ridiculously upset, not knowing what to do 3 days.. No friends around, as everyone had planned up in advance for this weekend, no parents coming also.. So I was left to look after myself..
Probably the first time, I felt, it can get difficult to live alone.. As a friend rightly told me "Whoever created marriages, would have surely given it a thought!". So what about before marriage? I was alone even then.. Probably there's an age till when you can be alone and not after that.. You will need a constant companion... Not that I am old now, but may be that being-alone-age has crossed for me..
I was anguished at the thought of being at home and doing nothing.. So I ended up working one of the days and sat holed up inside the house the rest 2 days.. Seriously, it's an art to live alone and that too live alone and do nothing.. I think I was probably more upset as I wanted to do lot many things.. but wasn't able to find company to do so.. I am a little slow in making friends and so that is another problem that I always have when I am alone.. If the friends I am usually with aren't available, then I am stuck.. not that I depend on them all the time.. But that someone not being there gets difficult..
Finally, the long weekend ends today, and I am sort of happy to go back to work tomorrow as it will mean meeting people and talking to another human being.. Being on Whatsapp, Skype and all the virtual world stuff 24*7, thought of meeting another fellow human being is kinda pleasing..
A little strange, that work is making me happy now!